New Directions

No sillies! I am not talking about Glee, even though I LOVE, LOVE,LOVE that show! It makes me wish that I could return to high school just to be part of a show choir group! But, as usual, I digress.

New Directions for me means taking my own life in a new direction. February 4, 2011, I was informed that I do in fact need to have surgery on my knee, but that in truth, due to a structural deformity that I have, it's a 50/50 chance of being successful in the long run.

The surgery date is set for late March, and since I am still on light duty, I am currently out of work. Even though it has been 2 months already, I feel as though now I have finally decided that I need to seek a new direction.

Life wasn't so great working at a job that I wasn't completely thrilled at. But I realized that I was trusting not in God, but in myself to make it through life. I wasn't living, and I have to confess that my patience with the kids was non existent.

Now that I have been contemplating and soul searching, I have been spending less and cooking more. I have been reading up a storm and enjoying the simple things of life, like evening games of Skip-Bo and Phase 10 with the kids. I have volunteered a lot at the kid's school and am looking forward to volunteering at one of the local food pantries.

I don't know where the money for the mortgage and all the bills will come from, as unfortunately I was the primary breadwinner, but it's ok by me to not know. I have already used up all my sick time and personal time at work, but so far we have needed for nothing. If anything, we as a family have bonded more. Interesting for a family with a preteen daughter and a son who has ADHD... it's a new direction for all of us.

I have been telling my self and the kids that having faith that we are where God wants and needs us to be is not easy but if we truly believe in God than we have to trust that He has a plan and it is not to harm us.

My motto for my new direction in life now comes from Acts 20:24

However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.


As frightening as it may be, God has a job for me and I need to keep my eyes focused on him in order to fulfill his plan for me. Stay tuned!